Friday, January 1, 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
a new year means to leave the dark past and to walk towards the bright future!well, on the last day of 2009, 31 dec 2009, i held a countdwn small party wif my fwenz..we played water bombs, celebrated jobine's belated birthday. sparkles, and not forgetting, THE COUNTDOWN! had the time of my life! i really do hope that i will be able to have diz much fun soon..i cnt rmb when i had diz much fun.. =( i do wonder if my friendship wif my fwenz will become like some of my pri sch fwenz..becuz..i certainly dun wan DAT kind of friendship!!!i'm lazy to give all the details abt ytd..hees~a picture speaks a thousand words so..let my pics do the talking! (^o^)
my precious babies picture time!
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mIsErAbLe KiMi ♥
1/01/2010 08:24:00 PM
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Wednesday, December 9, 2009
7 dec WAS A BLAST!
on mon me, huimin, liwei, stanley, laykai, candy, xinyi, not forgettin the star, aijing, celebrate aijing birthday..lol..since everybody was busy durin her b'day, we decided to celebrate it earlier! XD we went to kallang to ice skate..except for liwei.. =( for about 3 hrs? nt sure but ICE SKATING FUCKING ROCKS! im in love wif ice skating man! me and aijing both agree that ice skating is betta dan roller blading..! no offence to all roller bladin fans bt i still adore roller blading! hehe~ =Dcnt wait for the next day out and when i can both skate on ice and roads! yay~aft we skated, we were all aching..bt its worth it..we went out to the bus stop and waited for liwei to arrive..as soon as she arrive, we were all shock cuz liwei hairstyle changed alot!!! it look so NICE!!!! omfg..lol..i rili like her new style..lovin it! XDwe went to have our dinner tgt n bused dwn to roxy square dat area n had our dinner at ashton.. =D yum!!dan they discuss n decided to go to the arcade so dat they cn spend all of the $6 left frm the change frm the dinner..lol..bt its already 9pm so i had to go hme..so they send mi off..bid them all goodbyes n left for the bus..my leg had blisters so i was walkin hme rili rili damn slow..HAHA~ reached hme, my dad say he wana take my pic..zzz~ (-_-)" so he took, went up to my rm, switched on my com, bathe and wish aijing a very happy birthday! hehe~photo time!during aijing birthday!!! XD
now for my babies show time! hehe~
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mIsErAbLe KiMi ♥
12/09/2009 01:35:00 AM
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reply to u..
I don’t quite understand when you say, “I remember wat i say so don say until i am tat bad.Don tell me u watch those too don say u don undrestand chinese well...sorri to say tat.I do not have any wild thoughts, u can surely feel tat de person dislike u...is true” it’s true that I have short term memory but it’s not that bad. I remember you said hong kong version is better. Only that statement was crystal clear to me. So there’s no way for me for forget that statement. I don’t ever remembered you say anything about china. Maybe you did, I don’t remember. Anyway, I don’t mind already because it’s already in the past and I’m willing to let go.
Ya. Not everyday is depressing, I know. But I thought you are trying to say is that you are happy everyday. Maybe it’s my misunderstanding so I’m sorry. Thanks for listening to me but at least, when I talk, you could respond. I remembered clearly that when I talked to you, you will look away and look at other things and when I ask you a question, you did not respond so it’s clear to me that you weren’t listening. But it’s not everyday so I’m happy with you.
I don’t always push the blame to you. Don’t put words in my mouth. I admit everything. I did some things that hurt you, no doubt but I did admit it. I take the blame. I’m sorry. But not everybody’s perfect. I know you are not too but I don’t blame you. You know, when I feel angry with you, I will tell myself why should I be angry with you, everybody is not perfect. So I will forgive you. Sometimes that it hurt so much I just can’t help but go against you. But it shows how I see you as a close friend. If I don’t see you as a close friend, I would just simply ignored you earlier. But I don’t want to lose you as a friend so I stick by you. But recently I don’t know what’s gotten into me. It’s true, not bullshit.
Of course I did made you angry and upset most of the times. I know. But I can’t turn back time. What’s done is done. I’m sorry and I don’t know if you will be forgiving. When I attend aijing birthday, I saw you and I feel like I didn’t see you so many years. I don’t even know why I feel so embarrass when I glance at you. I lend you a helping hand but I feel that you don’t want to take it so I left you. I don’t blame you because that is what I will exactly do if I was in your position.
The high school life and over and it’s time to move on. I understand and I don’t hold grudges against you anymore. I don’t know if you do. If you don’t then, it’s good news to me. It’s the past and it’s over. The stress is over and everything seems bright and clear. All the hatred and the anger has cleared away maybe due to the O level. I feel better and free so I don’t want to be stuck in the past anymore. If I still write a letter to you, it shows that it’s difficult to let you go as a friend. At first I keep it all deep in my heart but not anymore.Labels: i'm feeling...satisfied and sleepy
mIsErAbLe KiMi ♥
12/09/2009 01:13:00 AM
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Wednesday, December 2, 2009
a bookworm today!
surprise? i duno y i have the feel to go back bloggin again! woo~today im like a freakin bookworm..spend almost the whole day at my parent's workplace..helpin my mom do some accountin stuffs..n for the very 1st tym, i didnt slp at my parents factory! haha~ XDthe reason was cuz i was so engross wif readin..the bk i bought b4 i flew to china.."the birthing house" its the title btw..hehe~ =D by Christopher Ransomnext happy ting was dat my babies went to work wif mi! yay! *huggies~* they always made my day brighter n they r so so so precious to mi..i duno wt i will do without them man! so today didnt sux so bad.my babies were there to make it betta.. XDits sad dat my holis r so fast comin to an end..its like abt 1 mth already gone? right nw, my past is all wts in my mind..all the happy moments i had wif my fwenz..the beginning of the yr..where all i culd tink of is "am i gonna fit in diz class? i dun tink i cn survive in diz damn class" like i miss all of my 'old' fwenz..i dun even noe how i gt thru without my pri sch fwenz! its like they r gone n im ok wif dat..bt nw, in sec sch, it seem harder for mi to let go of my classmates.. =( anw, enough of the bullshit..today all i do is read..play wif my babies..typing..counting..mostly readin..totally engross wif the bk!!!toddles~tmr im tinkin if i shuld go back to my parent's factory..discussin wif teddy abt a surprise..hehe~missin all my fwenz.. *muackz* (^8^)
~cute isn't it?? (^8^) ~
~such a gentleman pose~
~lookin at the cam!~
~lookin away, shy!~
~sittin outside of the bathroom~
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mIsErAbLe KiMi ♥
12/02/2009 08:18:00 PM
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009
holidays are here..but its not a fun one..
for most of u guys, u noe the O lvl r finished! abt 2 wks ago..bt i didnt update my bloggie cuz i dun have the mood to update. although its the holis, i duno y i've been feeling depress..im suppose to feel happy..i dun even have the mood to watch all the movies online dat i saved as favourites in my com..or to even continue watchin my anime shows dat i was addicted b4 my O lvl exam. i juz dun have the mood to do anything. lately, alot of depressing stuffs n emotional problems keep buggin mi..maybe becuz of all these probs. plus, all my fwenz r nw workin..i mean most of them..i dun even wana go out n have fun..i duno y..rili slacking..i duno wt i wana do..except stay at hme n emo all day long..zzz~ i juz came back frm china, most of my fwenz noe..some do nt..i've been coughin since i came back, had my medicine n im feeling betta. on the way to beijing frm xi'an, i tink i had a fever, rili felt sick to the stomach..bt its cuz i didnt have enough slp cuz aft i awoke frm my long slumber, i felt so much betta. aft i came back frm china, i feel depress all of a sudden..like all the depressin stuffs find their way to mi. even when im in china, i feel so sad. i duno wt to do anymore..i tot i cn move on..bt i dun tink i cn. something keeps pulling mi back n stops mi frm havin fun. like im all alone. i dun wana mingle or wdv..juz wana rot at hme..bt i cnt even if i wanted to. tmr im goin to my parents work place to help my mom wif her accounting stuffs again..its gonna sux..my plan was to work at a pet shop..was REALLY lookin forward to it..bt since nobody acc mi so i juz forget abt it..so many depressing moments i had n facing it alone was so tough..im still nt yet recovered frm the recent hurt..i doubt i will eva heal..
~can my baby breathe?!~
~my cutie curious about the toilet~
~i really really really miss her~
~my uncle had a new doggie..kopi! sadly, they wana give it away~
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mIsErAbLe KiMi ♥
12/01/2009 03:55:00 PM
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thanks for being truthful to me. i really appreciate it a lot. it's true that i am not your only friend. what i'm saying is that once you saw your friend, you pay attention to them andwhen i try and talk to you, you ignored me or was not paying any attention. i felt hurt that'swhy i said "never mind" or "nothing" that is also why i did the same to make you feel howi feel. i also been hurt by other things all my life. it's not only you. we all do. plus i take a longer time to heal. if you feel like you are being hated, reflect on yourself, is the problem with me? what did i do to make me so disliked by so many. there has to be a reason. it can't be a co-incident that everyone dislike you. it may also be your wild imagination. it is you. your character so heck care all of your haters. just try to change in a positive way and maybe people are willing to give you a second chance. to let go of a hurt feeling is difficult. maybe in your whole life, you may not forget the hurt. once you felt it, it will always be there to haunt you. everybody have depressing days. you can't say you will always be happy. even if you try. remember during our chinese lesson, we were watchingsome kind of chinese show, i forgot, you say hong kong version is better, when you said that,it makes me feel that singaporean are inferior. maybe you don't mean it that way but if youdid say out loud, people will think the same way as i do. so please be careful of what you say. don't deny that you never changed. you did. it's just like what you say, you can't feel the change. only others can see. have your own style. ya, you have to sometimes show how you feel. but show it in a nice way. don't show it in a way where people will see you and think how rude or selfcentered you are. you understand yourself better than anybody else but others don't so don't show them the negative side of you. i not sure if i am still willing to let go. it is difficult for me. maybe i will not be able to let go forever. it is just the wayi feel.Labels: i'm feeling...sad
mIsErAbLe KiMi ♥
12/01/2009 01:04:00 PM
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Thursday, November 19, 2009
if you know this is meant for u..then it is..
i am really upset right now so i do not have the mood to argue anymore..this is my last letter to you..please dont take it too seriously..i'm sick of everything right now..here goes..I have a feeling that you dun like me and we can’t get along. So I think this is the end of our friendship. This fight did not start with me. Find a reason why I avoided you. There must be something you did that pissed me off. I can’t just ignore you all of a sudden with no reason.
I admit that I did some things you don’t like. I’m guilty. I did talk behind your back. But at least I’m brave enough to admit what I did. So I’m sorry for what ever I did that make you upset. Recently I heard from someone that you and your group were talking about me behind my back. I was just a few metres away. Yet you still have the guts to continue talking about me. I don’t know what u guys talk about is good or bad. I don’t want to know. Maybe sometimes I thought u was acting innocent. But it’s really you. And I’m sorry. Maybe I never met anyone that has the same character as you and I reacted wrongly. I do admit that I have enjoyed some times with you.
The reason why I say u was acting because sometimes I feel that you are so proud of being a foreigner that you forgotten that you are now a Singaporean. Dont deny it...that’s how I feel...if it’s the way you are. Then I don’t have any comments. Also, I felt that you made use of me. When you have friends or with friends, you ignore me most of the time but when you have nobody, you “care” about me. I don’t know if it is true but that is what I see in you. This is how I feel and I’m sorry if I hurt you.
This year, I felt like I knew u better but as I get to know u better, I get to know your true color. Maybe we will meet again in the streets but I’m not sure if we are going greet each other. I’m sure I will. Because after all, we did shared some wonderful experience together. If you walk away, it’s fine with me. I want to thank for all the memories you have given me. I can’t forget a happy n lively girl like u.
FYI...if u think I’m acting in front of you...I’m not...Ok? When u see me with my friends, that’s how I see you with your friends. I do feel bad when I see how they treat u but I can’t stop it. I do not know if you think this is a joke. It is NOT a joke and I think I have to come clean. Remember the good times. Not the bad. What ever you choose, it’s out of my hands. You can’t tell everyone everything all the time.
Thanks for helping me out. I wish u well for the years to come...Labels: i'm feeling...depressed and trying to move on
mIsErAbLe KiMi ♥
11/19/2009 02:55:00 AM
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